It is hard to start a new relationship when all I have known are bad ones. But when I met My Love, it was like my heart knew before my brain, that he was the one. He is a good person who loves me for me. He doesn't judge me for my past, and I don't for his past. What our lives were before each other, is not our problem. I only think about our present and our future together. He is the best, and I am so in love with him, it has made me believe that I am too crazy to have this. That someone will pull the rug out from under me and I will end up on my face and wake from this beautiful dream. I am so happy until those I believe would be happy for me when I tell them, either don't respond to any of my texts, tell me that I might be moving too fast or that it isn't a good idea because I don't know them as much as I believe that I do. But I don't care what they say. We make our own rules, and it makes me sad to think that they wouldn't be happy for me, or want to see how happy I am. Makes me double-think why I even told them in the first place. There have been so many people that have put their foot in, my past relationships, and yes, maybe then, it was needed because they were bad relationships. But this one is so good and I will not let anyone ruin it for us. We want a life together, and I will not let anyone get in the way of us loving each other and having a future, the future that we both deserve together. He is the first to see me for me, and accept me, not want to change me or pretend I am someone I am not. He doesn't hide me or our love, he wants to show off how much he loves me and how much I love him. He is proud to call me his, and I love him more and more, every minute of every day. I do know him, and he knows me. Time is nothing unless it is time spent on us, being together, loving each other more and more every hour of every day. Time is for us, not about the time that we weren't together the time between when our relationship started to now or even the time that we were with others when we wanted to be together. Time is what we make it.
Every couple is different, there is no right or wrong way to be a couple. The only thing that matters, is that you love, respect and want to be in a relationship with the other. Whether that's with two people of 4 in a relationship. Every person is different. So let us love each other, care for one another, and stop talking about, "the only way to know someone is to be with them for years. Time is everything about living together." I believe that Time is what you both make of it.
I understand that some couples like their time apart, like to do their things and hang with friends and family but also love to be with their significant others. And others love spending all their time with their loved ones, and miss them when they aren't in the same place. I am one of them. I hate spending time away from my love. I miss him every day. I love physical touch, so when we are together, which is every day at home, I am either holding his hand, stroking his beard, kissing him or just grazing my fingers all over his body. True, I like to do my own thing, but not without him. I love to write, and he plays games. So whilst he is playing Call of Duty in the living room, we've got music playing and I am sitting next to him on the sofa with my laptop. We are doing our own thing, but together. We love spending time together. When I meet with friends or family, he is usually my date. I am always holding his hands, with the biggest smile on both of our faces.
I am not saying that those people that don't spend all their time together, don't love each other any less. This is just what we like to do. It is a different kind of love.
This post was originally going to be about an ex that propped up in an old post, but I didn't want to give them so much power, and I don't care for them anymore. I haven't for a while, not since meeting My Love. And to be honest, I don't care to think about him. I only think about my New and Last Love. As I want him forever, there is no way of getting rid of me, my love. I smile every time we talk, you look at me, and when I look at you, I smile whenever you are near. I love you so much. And we will be together very soon.
So this post, is for you, my love. Forever you have my heart.
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