Why do I get myself in these situations? Where I think that this is what I deserve?!
To be treated with so little respect, to be ignored, to think that they will call when they say, and then they don't. I don't understand why they feel that this is a good thing to do.
I want someone who wants me too. Who wants to spend time with me, likes to call and chat and plan dates. I just want someone to spend time with. To get to know someone interested in me.
We want someone who doesn't just meet us to get drunk and doesn't remember the night before. Someone who brings up the past, because they want a reaction from us, they want to see us jealous and hurt. This is where they get their power.
Why do we settle for this?
We should be thinking about ourselves and what we want, even if I just want to be with Drew. But I want to be with the Drew I met in the first week of our relationship. This person, this new character, I don't like one bit. And I should cut ties, but all I keep wondering is, what if he calls me? What if he reaches out and changes? What if he wants me, but doesn't know how to show me?
I can't believe that I let another person, who said that they'd never hurt me, hurt me. And all I wanted was to spend time with them. I don't care about money or gifts, what I care about is communication, affection and someone who just wants to spend time with me, no matter what we do.
Maybe I need to focus on myself more and do what makes me happy, and if Drew wants to be a part of my life, they will show me. And if not, we need to sit down, face to face and talk. Clear it out, and then walk away like mature adults.
Either we clear the air and work on ourselves and our possible relationship, or break up and walk away. x
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