I've sent this blog site to someone else, and i don't want him to treat me different. In a bad way.
I don't think he will, because we talk a lot. But, you can never be to careful. I shouldn't worry.
I'm not going to worry. Forget that!
I'm gonna worry. Yay! For me
But, i do think, what's he gonna think? How's he gonna react. I don't want pity. And i don't want him to be horrible to me
I don't know what I'm asking for here, respect. Understanding.
Fuck! Sometimes i just want "a different kinda hug". That's what he said once. Well, that's what I want.
I just don't know how to ask for it. And i don't think he will give me a hug. It might feel weird to him.
God this sucks.
People think that I've got a partner. Maybe I should just let them keep thinking that i do, when i don't.
Should i lie. My life seems pathetic to new people. What's wrong in a little lie?!
But, i don't wanna do that. I don't want to lie about having love or being in a relationship, i want the real deal. I want the real thing.
And i will, even if it's not now, or here.
I think this guy is still caught on his ex girlfriend, that he is too blind to see other " fish in the sea ".
It's sad.
But she hurt him, just like S. Hurt me.
And i don't want that, ever again. So i must carry on, fishing. 😅
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