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Sad, but can't cry...

Writer's picture: Bjørk O'HaraBjørk O'Hara

Truth is, it's true. I'm sad, but can't shred a single tear. I try, but my eyes are dry. Last night i cried for three hours. I cried until i fell asleep. Woke up, dry to the bone.


Laid in bed, for what seemed like hours, had no energy, no motivation. I was too sad, to even get up to use the toilet. I run the shower, and wait. Not undressing, not getting under the hot heat. Just standing, staring at nothing whilst the water gushes down around me. I finally got in, and stood there for an hour. Once again, i couldn't do anything, let alone, cry.


And why? I don't know. My head isn't giving me an answer right now. All i know is, i can't cry, haven't smiled since waking up. I'm not even hungry.


It's past 6pm here. I woke up at 8:45am. I've not eaten all day. Drank plenty of water. But food? Nothing!

I've got no energy to make anything, so i ordered a pizza. Other wise, i know, I'd go to bed hungry tonight.


I went to the shop, and stocked up on milk, fruit, juice, and meat.

I literally had to push myself out of the door.

So, that's where I am now. Sitting in my room, at my new desk. And new chair, eating. For the first time all day.


With all this sadness, I've had no time or energy to tell you about the new additions to my room. But i guess, that is something I'll have to talk about, another time.

I've started thinking and noting down things to include in my blessing for mum and Chris. And I'll get there. But not today.

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