I'm already sad, spending days not being able to cry. now at work, my tears suddenly come streaming out. Although, only for a quick 20 seconds. Before, I'm back to numbness.
This work place is draining the life out of me, and no one cares.
I'm still getting inappropriate things said to me, and touching where i say no. Why won't he take no for an answer!
I've stil got an hour and half left of this shift, and i don't want to be here anymore.
I want to leave, but this is the only work i have, and i need the money. So i chug on. Even though, there's nothing left but an empty Shell of the person i once was.
I need a hug, i say, but not loud enough, that someone gives one to me. I know if i start talking, i will start crying, if i can, and I'm scared that i won't ever stop.
Like oking for work elsewhere is hard, especially, when i feel way to drained to try and look. Because then i have to have a conversation with my current leader, to tell her that i won't be having work her no more. And it's leaving the residents that I've come to know, and a few of the workers that i work along side.
But it has to be done, because i want to work on going forward, not feeling pushed aside, or down, so as i can't move away. I'll be stuck in this sickle cicle and it sucks.
I'm shaking now! And they ignore. But, i don't want them to fall behind in their own work, but, I've been like this for months. I've been working here for months, and All i get, is backlash.
I want out! And i want it now!
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