Finally, the day has come and gone.
I am in Denmark, starting the life that I have always wanted, dreamed about having, and enjoying the life that I chose to set myself up for. I am living in Denmark. I have always wanted to live here since I left here when I was a young child.
Now that I am here, I really wish that I could have started this journey sooner, but glad that I didn't wait too long to start enjoying my life, the way that I want to. I am currently working on applying for my Danish citizenship, applying for jobs, applying for a bank card, joining a gym, finding a therapist, joining sports clubs, meeting new people and so much more. Thankfully, I have already got my key for where I will be living, for the next couple of months, until I find somewhere better and more social. I have been looking at bikes, as I still can not drive, however, I am not worried about that, as I can get where I need to get to, with biking, buses, and trains.
Even with all this goodness in my life at the current times, this morning I was very sad, I didn't want to wake up, get dressed, even have a shower or eat. I just didn't have the energy or confidence to do anything. But I did get up, jumped in the shower, got dressed in color to lift my mood, and ate some food. I made a coffee, grabbed my book, and sat outside in the hot sun with the family dog. Though I had a bad morning, I wasn't going to let it ruin the rest of my day, so I was made an iced coffee and started to write. Instantly feeling much better, not fully, but better.
I have been here 4 and a bit days, but It still hasn't sunken in that I live here now. And I plan on staying, living here for the next 4 to 8 years. I am happy here. It doesn't mean that I think that my depression has gone, but that I believe that I can work on it, get better, still have it, but be able to control it more. I don't have many bad memories here, just a few, but not as many as I did have in England. I want to be closer to my baby brother, watching him grow up, and be there for his milestones. I would love to have a closer relationship with my dad, try to fill those dark gaps that he left in my heart. forgive and move on, make more memories, not live in the past, and watch the things that I didn't have growing up. Be more appreciative of what I had, what I have now, and what I want in the future.
So yes, I am in Denmark now! I start my jewelry course this Sunday, will be there for 14 days. meet new people, learn new skills, and work on my creative side. As well as writing as much as I can. Taking pictures, making memories and friends, enjoying this great opportunity, and learning more about this country that I love, the language that I adore, and the people that I will come to meet.
I am nervous and excited to be moving in after my course, but If you want something, you believe that you can achieve this, and go for it, then you can do anything. I have confidence in myself that I can live independently, make money, live for myself and make a life that I could be proud of. I know that It will be hard, and sometimes I will struggle, but I believe that I can do it if I really want it. So, here I go, wish me, luck guys. And thank you, for the support, in reading my words.
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