I hate this. When i meet a guy that i like at the beginning, it starts great. But quickly he messes with my head and says he's interested but ghosted you Everytime.
That's the problem with me, i jump in with my heart and not my head.
It was going well. Well, ok, i take that back. This guy, huh, this guy, well, i met him on Instagram a while back when i was visiting my father. We didn't meet up, as i was traveling back to England couple days later and we thought it would be stupid.
Now, November last year, i move into this new home. I love it here. Most times. I reach out to a few people. Him including. We start talking and then plan to meet that Saturday. We talked on the Tuesday before, that's four days before the meet up. And what did he do, ghosted me. Those four days. And the next five days.
I was sick of it. I was confused, to why he would do this to me. Why he didn't just cancel or message me back after that Saturday.
Five Long days after, i decide to cut him out. Sending him this long ish message how i could do better, why he was ghosting me, and that i hope that one day when he finds a partner, that he never treats them like he treated me. That i hoped he'd find someone as good as me, but it wouldn't be me.
I deleted him. And a day later he message me back with excuses about why he'd ghosted me. Messed up ones. But for some stupid reason, i decided to give him a second chance. And told him to meet me that night in a car park, full of people and close to my house.
We met. Well, he met. You surprised?! I was! Also kinda pissed, to why he could meet me then, but not before. It was a terrible date. Don't really feel like getting into it, but he insulted me many times, acted like s child, but he made me laugh. And i liked talking to him, other than the bad parts. So we planned to meet again. He was going to come to my house with his laptop and we would watch a movie.
He came! Without his laptop. He kept telling me that we were friends, and that he didn't want to ruin the friendship. But he also said that he wanted to be more than friends. With me. I told you this guy makes no sense.
I kept asking questions, trying to get to know him. Meet up, plan dates. Nothing!
So he said that he wanted to be friends! That he didn't want to ruin our friendship! But he was ok with using me. For sexual favors, even though I said that i didn't want that anymore. He tricked me, into getting in bed with him. Sleeping in the same bed all night. And then he turned around and it blew up in my face.
The horrible part was, that i am interested in him. I enjoyed sleeping next to him. But give me a break, he rolls around so much. It's like sleeping with jelly. Always moving. But sweet.
I called him today, after days of being ghosted because he said he'd come over. And he was eating whilst talking to me, with his friends laughing at me in the background. I've given him so many chances. Why?! God i don't know why. But he's not getting anymore.
If he wanted one, he will have to work hard, and maybe i won't ghosted him right back.
Why do we go for the guys that always mess us around. If you've found someone that adores you and treats you right, that's great. I hope to find that too, one day.
Sorry about this blog post, sometimes it's just great to rant. But when i started writing this post, i didn't realize how much i needed to rant, and how much would end up on the page.
So, happy reading. And hope to hear from you soon, and see you in the next post. Have a great day!
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