Stress overcomes my body,
I reach for my covers,
Pulling them up and over my head.
Try to block out the light
and swallow the darkness
with my clenched teeth and fists in tight balls.
A thousand movements throw themselves around in my mind.
Thinking that screaming will help, wash away all this muck,
I open my mouth, although no sound comes out.
With my fists in balls, I start punching my pillow,
'Maybe this will help, with the stress, and let me sleep' I think.
Without really thinking about what I am doing, I grab my arm,
Biting down hard, to unleash the dragon within.
I scream out in pain, squinting my eyes shut.
No one hears me,
Or if they do, they don't let it be known.
Letting my arm go, I open my eyes slowly,
To stare at the teeth marks appearing on my arm.
Tears trickle down my cheeks,
Making puddles around me.
I reach for my headphones, slamming them down over my ears.
I lay back on my bed, closing my eyes, as the music streams through my ears.
Relaxing my fists, they lay on either side of me.
Unclentching my teeth, giving orders for them to get in line and to relax.
My mind gets fuzzy, and I drift.
From hours to minutes, I am asleep, dreaming only about other things than this.
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