Today started like any other day, I woke up at 9 am to a hungry stomach. I went downstairs to grab breakfast and a cup of coffee, before disappearing upstairs again.
turning the music up loud, I work hard on my Blessing. writing, and rewriting, trying to get it right. Finally, out of nowhere, in the back of my mind, the words fall out and swim on the page. once I started, I couldn't stop. all there was to do was to redirect a few of my words, before packing my bags, with my laptop, and heading downstairs again.
Fully dressed, I ate some pizza and headed towards the coffee, that was calling my name. I picked up some wedding accessories and met with the bride. shoe shopping! is not my favourite part of shopping, but needed to be done. I am running out of time. I looked in 5 to 8 different charity shops, but no luck so far. so I took a coffee break, with my laptop. sitting here, listening to music, as the words pour out of me, I look around at the busy cafe. lighting up with energy, as people come and go. children running around laughing, the cafe workers filtering up the screen, from all different entrances. people come in and out, moving in between the crowds, and disappearing in the light. slowly we all leave, as the workers clean up, and the sky darkens.
Packing my bag, as I plan to head out, I finish off with some words for my blog.
I had a slight panic attack that lasted about 5 mins, but it felt like longer. I am having more and more lately. more than before, or usual. I am not worried, I just have to keep an eye on it.
After this week, I may book a face call with my therapist in Denmark. but I guess I am nervous. I have had a lot of bad dips since being back in Norwich.
But after a bad start to the day, I am feeling loads better. getting out of the house, fresh air. and writing. I am still sad, but this has been quite uplifting.
Dinner with a cousin tonight. I'm excited to see them because we always have fun together.
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