Why is it that we are so scared to walk alone in the dark? why am I?
We are told to protect ourselves, keep ourselves to ourselves, us girls. but why is that? it is like we have to be careful in our own streets. not just females, anyone, everywhere, we are told that we need to be safe. and of course, that is the right move, we need to keep each other safe and look out for one and another. even if sometimes we don´t know how to. but we do, we have to move on.
I walked the streets with my dog, thinking about the streets I grew up in. they may not be home, but I experienced everything in those streets. I was humiliated in my streets, abused, molested, and bulled. And even though it has been a year away from the streets, I am back and it feels like I never left. I feel the eyes on me, the comments that meant the worse just a year ago, and no matter how much I
don´t want them to define me, they follow me, everywhere, I go, not leaving me be.
walking those streets, alone in the dark, the clouds above shaving the foam across the sky, the light vanishing from up above. the dark shadows that linger in the distance, you thinking that they are after you, running towards you, that you cross the street, for safety. as they run straight past you on the opposite street, you sigh with relief, thinking that you were stupid. but that feeling never goes away, it sticks by me forever, the feeling that someone is after me, always one step behind me.
but I know that I can live through it, and I can get past that feeling, even if it never really goes away, I know that I can still walk the streets alone, even if I am scared.
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