Hey.....

Hey there!

I know, it's been a while. But still not too long. I'm here now, that's what's important.

I haven't felt the motivation to get any posts up and to share how I'm doing. Because truth Is, i don't know how to write about it, let alone share it with the world.

I wrote a post over Instagram, which was connected to my Facebook, so i got a lot of messages from those that care. Worried.

I didn't have an answer.

I know that i have to control everything that's going on onside me, but I'm finding it so hard to keep it in and carry on.

But i have to live my life. I know!

It makes it hard when people are I'll, work is hard. Or when i decide to put my attention into another guy, that treats me almost the same as the last. Why do i do that!

He says he is interested, then ignores me for days. Plans a date and a call, but never shows up.

I don't know how I pick them.

But, I'll be fine. Even though I don't feel it.

So, I'll roll out of bed, have a shower, dress in colours, and show that i am worth it. That I'll get through it all. That I'm good enough, and that, i will be ok.

Now i just got to believe in it. Not just saying it out loud, but truly believing it.